Sin, the Law, and the Believer

Part One

My ‘walk’ has been a whirlwind of learning. Yearning and striving for the truth. Unapologetically endeavoring to understanding Scripture, history, and what I am to do and not do because this great gift has been given to anyone who wishes merely to accept it, and I want to represent my God appropriately! Cheap grace was not for me!

WARNING! This will challenge everything you’ve learned in Sunday school and church.

As I studied, questions arose:

How DO we ‘walk as Jesus walked’?
How did he walk?
What did the apostles teach?
How did they live?
If following the Law is death, why would God give it to man saying it isn’t too difficult?
The Commands and Law were given by God to Moses at the same time. Can we separate them?
If we are grafted into the vine that is called Israel, as Paul states, are we bound to the same covenants?
How can the Law be called Liberty by David and death by Christianity?
What did Paul really say about the Law?

What did Jesus say about the Law?!

What I have discovered will be broken down into sections because there’s too much to read in one sitting.

Sabbath or the Lord’s Day?

We have been taught that the Sabbath was changed to Sunday because that is the day the Lord rose from the grave. But, what does scripture really tell us?

First of all, Scripture never reveals a change during the time of the apostles for the Sabbath to being observed on Sunday or the first day of the week. God said to keep the Sabbath (7th day for the Hebrews is what we know as Saturday) (Exodus 20:8-10). It is an everlasting command with no expiration date for those who are his. The apostles, referred to as Nazarenes in Acts 24:5, still observed the Sabbath as evidenced in Acts 13:14, 42, 44 and 15:21 (as examples).

Jesus went into the synagogues to teach each Sabbath. The apostles did, as well.

It was those within the early Church hierarchy by 106 C.E. who began meeting on the first day of the week or Sunday. Those ‘early church fathers’ of the newly named Catholic (universal) Church, claiming itself to be the ‘true Christianity’, began distancing themselves from the Nazarenes (these must have been the ‘false’ Christians they opposed?). One way to create a divide was to change the day they devoted to worshipping God from the 7th day Sabbath rest God commanded. The ‘eastern congregations’ still followed God’s Feasts and Sabbaths. Eventually, this group disappears from history after the Council of Nicea made specific decisions on doctrines that excluded other Believers.

They made their own doctrines just like the Pharisees! And, their writings revealed they were pleased to put an end to the Nazarenes who dogged them for their unscriptural doctrines. Constantine made the change official for the empire by edict or the first Blue Law: “On the venerable Day of the sun let the magistrates and people residing in cities rest, and let all workshops be closed. In the country, however, persons engaged in agriculture may freely and lawfully continue their pursuits: because it often happens that another Day is not so suitable for grain sowing or for vine planting: lest by neglecting the proper moment for such operations the bounty of heaven should be lost.

The ‘venerable Day of the sun’ or sun-God worship had always been observed in polytheistic Rome and prior polytheistic societies to honor the sun god – called Mithras in Constantine’s reign. Do not be deceived by the claim that Constantine became a Christian when he observed a sign in the sky.  That story had several variations documented by Eusebius and contradicting stories of Constantine remaining a Mithras worshipper until his death abound. Constantine is also mistakenly credited with making Christianity the official religion of the Roman Empire, but this took place 67 years later in 380 CE under Theodosius. Further, as the Nicene doctrines of this new religion calling itself Catholicism gained power, people were denied the right to observe any other forms of Christianity; and, Jews and Nazarenes were persecuted.

Religious leaders of Christian-Catholicism claimed the authority to make changes to God’s commands just as the religious leaders of Jesus’ day (Pharisees and Sadducees) and today in Judaism (Rabbis) claim authority to amend the Law. This was what Jesus specifically railed against!

Isn’t the Law for Israel?

Evidence from the Bible is clear. The Law existed before the beginning. Since God does not change, His Law is part of His character. (Malachi 3:6) But because I, YHWH, do not change, you sons of Jacob will not be destroyed.

After ‘the Fall’, Adam taught his sons to make offerings to God (Yehovah): (Genesis 4:3-4) In the course of time Cain brought an offering to YHWH from the produce of the soil; and Abel too brought from the firstborn of his sheep, including their fat.

Noah made offerings to Yehovah: (Genesis 8:20) Noah built an altar to YHWH. Then he took from every clean animal and every clean bird, and he offered burnt offerings on the altar.

Long before the Law was given to Israel from Mt. Sainai, Abraham kept it!

(Genesis 26:4-5) “I will make your offspring as numerous as the stars of the sky, I will give your offspring all these lands, and all the nations of the earth will be blessed by your offspring, because Abraham listened to My voice and kept My mandate, My commands, My statutes, and My instructions.” (Torah)

Isaac and Jacob made offerings to YHWH, too!

Thus, before the Law was given to Moses for God’s people, it existed and was followed by those called. It is not the Law of the Jews or Israel. It is God’s Law.

Even if you were to hold onto the Law applying to Israel, you have to take into account the ex-Pharisee’s statements in Romans 11:

(Romans 11:16-21, 24, 28-29) Now if the firstfruits offered up are holy, so is the whole batch. And if the root is holy, so are the branches. Now if some of the branches were broken off, and you, though a wild olive branch, were grafted in among them and have come to share in the rich root of the cultivated olive tree, do not brag that you are better than those branches. But if you do brag—you do not sustain the root, but the root sustains you. Then you will say, “Branches were broken off so that I might be grafted in.” True enough; they were broken off by unbelief, but you stand by faith. Do not be arrogant, but be afraid. For if God did not spare the natural branches, He will not spare you either. For if you were cut off from your native wild olive and against nature were grafted into a cultivated olive tree, how much more will these—the natural branches—be grafted into their own olive tree? Regarding the gospel, they are enemies for your advantage, but regarding election, they are loved because of the patriarchs, since God’s gracious gifts and calling are irrevocable.

As a believer in Jesus, you are grafted into the cultivated olive tree (Israel) and; therefore, as an adopted child, subject to the rules of the Father of the house.

Are you bristling yet? So did your ancestors.


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Are We Really God’s People?

Shalom on the Feast of Trumpets, 2017!
The day and hour no one knows in advance …
Hint: Jesus referred directly to this.

I pray you read to the end with eyes that can see.

The Feast of Trumpets memorializes the giving of the commands of God. The days of awe follow, when one looks into their heart and all their sin, and prays for foregiveness. This leads to the day of Atonement with fasting and prayer.  These are two of the seven Holy convocations; practices and shadow pictures of the return of Messiah!

God’s Law Only for the Jew?

But, that’s for the Jews, right?  YHWH named his people Israel – sorry if that offends. But, His Torah or instructions are not just for Jews but for all who claim to be His. (Deuteronomy 31:12) “Gather the people—men, women, children, and foreigners living within your gates—so that they may listen and learn to fear the Lord your God and be careful to follow all the words of this law.”  Foreigners here is the Hebrew word Ger which means proselyte, one who converts. Paul stated that Believers in Jesus are grafted into the cultivated olive tree called Israel.  Therefore, it is the Believer who changes ‘nationality’.

‘Come Out of Her My People’

I am struck that we who call ourselves ‘saved’ still accept the doctrines of men without question, because those men call themselves Christians. They are just like those leaders Jesus (Yeshua) spoke against – placing their doctrines and traditions above the Word of the Holy Scriptures, the Torah of YHWH and the prophets. They still burden the people under a yoke filled with deception.

We who say we belong to YHWH still observe festivals to false gods and goddesses, renamed by men as Christian holidays, as if something pagan can ever be made Holy by human effort. Does it bother no one that Easter was a festival to the fertility goddess Ishtar which precedes Christmas (previously, Child Mass) by NINE MONTHS?!? The human gestation period? On Child Mass the babies conceived through Ishtar’s priests and virgin women the previous Spring were sacrificed to Molech (Ba’al, Mithras, etc.) on the day of the sun-god’s birth, December 25th on the modern calendar.  Then, 12 days of debauchery and gift-giving followed! And, we claim it as the birth of our Redeemer and sing songs! (Huge shiver!)

And, we who claim to love Jesus with all our heart, mind, soul and strength go to church on the ‘venerable day’ of the sun-god – to quote Constantine – instead of the Sabbath Jesus observed because men who wanted to distance their religion from the Jews changed it! We break a Commandment each week and think nothing of it!  Yet, we still claim to belong to the God of Abraham.

Plus, we who claim to be grafted into the cultivated olive tree, drag Yehovah’s instructions (Torah) through the mud because mere men told us that to follow them is death. That is NOT what Paul wrote! He said to follow them for one’s own righteousness is death; but, to follow them in obedience to Yehovah when one Believes in His sent Redeemer is to do exactly what the Redeemer did and what the apostles did. Read Acts. Paul stated repeatedly that he was doing nothing to break Torah or teach others to do so. He even took a leverite vow, shaving his head to prove it! Does Yehovah change His mind? He says, No!

What Jesus do you follow?

Jesus, the prophet of whom Moses said we must ‘Shema’ (Sh’ma: hear and obey), said he didn’t come to abolish the Law but to do it! He came to show US how to live it. He also said, ‘So whoever disobeys the least of these commands and teaches others to do so will be called the least in the Kingdom of Heaven. But whoever obeys them and so teaches will be called great in the Kingdom of Heaven.’ (Matthew 5:19)  He also said, ‘If you love me, you will keep my commands.’ (John 14:15)  Christianity claims that Jesus is the human embodiment of the Father, Yahovah.  Therefore, the commands are definitely His!

Why do we who claim the Good News never acknowledge that Yeshua didn’t come proclaiming the gospel of himself, but the good news of the coming Kingdom of Heaven!

Do You Understand What Jesus Said?

“Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord!’ will enter the Kingdom of Heaven, only those who do what my Father in heaven wants. On that Day, many will say to me, ‘Lord, Lord! Didn’t we prophesy in your name? Didn’t we expel demons in your name? Didn’t we perform many miracles in your name?’ Then I will tell them to their faces, ‘I never knew you! Get away from me, you workers of lawlessness!’” (Matthew 7:21-23)  Here is a picture of Christianity, doing good works in His Name yet denies His commands.

Do we really walk as Jesus walked? No.  He walked by Torah, not the takkanot* of the Pharisees OR the teachers we call pastors. Do we really belong to the Kingdom? Or, are we fooling ourselves? We are Lawless (without the Law)?  (Takkanah: Hebrew laws added to or in place of Torah made by the religious leaders.)

Is hatred for the Law why the seminarians refuse to teach the book of the Revelation of Yeshua ha Mashiach (Jesus the Christ)? Because Revelation 12:17 and 14:12 literally give the prerequisites for being considered His elect and that would put a wrench in their doctrines? (Revelation 12:17) “The dragon was infuriated over the woman and went off to fight the rest of her children, those who obey God’s commands and bear witness to Yeshua.” (Revelation 14:12) “This is when perseverance is needed on the part of God’s people, those who observe his commands and exercise Yeshua’s faithfulness.”

We Are to Walk in Yeshua’s Faithfulness

How was Yeshua faithful? He did the will of the Father and he walked out the commands (greater detail being given in Torah) without violating any of them. Because, sin is breaking the Law. (1 John 3:4) Yes, he violated the laws of the Pharisees because they were creations of men which over-rode the Torah.

My heart bleeds for the deceived; my anger boils against the deceivers – the false teachers who lead the sheep astray.  They exist in both Judaism and Christianity – Judah and Israel, the two kingdoms of YHWH’s people who will be rejoined (Ezekiel 37).  You are supposed to know the difference!

I pray all these takkanot – doctrines of men will be cast out of the presence of Believers and the Truth will become clear to all. Soon …

Wash your garments, come out of all that is Babylon, and pray for His Truth to be revealed!


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R-E-S-P-E-C-T find out what it means to me…

Truth hurts sometimes, but only when we are in the wrong.

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Respect, Honor and Leadership

Just because you “think” you know the definition of certain words, does not guarantee you know them. Having been told I should show this person or that one respect I must weigh that upon the actual definition of the word.

Respect as a Noun; is a feeling of deep admiration for someone or something elicited by their abilities, qualities, or achievements.

Respect as a Verb; is to admire (someone or something) deeply, as a result of their abilities, qualities, or achievements.

Both definitions are the result of the person demanding respect, to have done, or in the process of doing, something honorable. While that leaves the door wide open on the subject matter, it often becomes more of an expectation, with built in ego, and not about results.

Which character traits should I be respecting and which ones should I be disregarding?

Certainly this…

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Unbelief, unrighteousness and God’s wrath

Hegelian Dialectic, used by the new world order Cabal, Luciferians, has no place among the congregations of God’s people. It is a lie of the devil, placed in our midst!

Possessing the Treasure

by Mike Ratliff

5 But because of your stubbornness and unrepentant heart you are storing up wrath for yourself in the day of wrath and revelation of the righteous judgment of God, Romans 2:5 (NASB)

In my research on the Hegelian Dialectic over the years it was amazing how many and how often some very well known “Christian” leaders kept coming up. I watched part of an interview done with Billy Graham several years ago in which he gave the reasons for his moving from “evangelism” as the primary focus of his ministry to that of Social Justice, world hunger, et cetera. He called it “his fourth conversion.” The result of that “conversion” was the creation of the Lausanne Movement. This is not an isolated incident. Rick Warren, one of the leaders in the seeker sensitive movement, held a tour several years ago called 12 Cities / 12 Conversations tour, which…

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Jesuit perversions of scripture

Kind of ruins the “inerrancy” doctrine!
Only in this age can we reveal that mankind has translated the Scriptures incorrectly and many times worked to make the text say what the theologians wanted it to say according to their preconceived notions.
Now, let’s consider “also”, meaning “in addition”. In light of the northern kingdom being divorced for its flagrant polytheism and becoming like the nations (goyim), and being claimed by Yeshua as the other flock, is our understanding here in error? Many northern kingdom Israelites, commonly referred to as Ephraim, were still in regions governed by Rome. According to Alfred Edersheim, the Judeans believed that because Ephraim was divorced, Torah prevented Ephraim from being brought back into the Covenant (True, unless God had a plan for Ephraim which the Pharisees were too proud to consider).
This explains why they fought Yeshua so vehemently on this point. Goyim were also considered dead. Paul speaks to this very point that being without Torah, they were already dead. SO, if “also” is part of the original text, it would be extremely important!
Understand the front of the Books!

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1 Peter 4:6 King James Version (KJV)

For for this cause was the gospel preached also to them that are dead, that they might be judged according to men in the flesh, but live according to God in the spirit.

Revised versions: 

1 Peter 4:6 Revised Standard Version (RSV)

For this is why the gospel was preached even to the dead, that though judged in the flesh like men, they might live in the spirit like God.

1 Peter 4:6 International Standard Version (ISV)

Indeed, this is why the gospel was proclaimed even to those who have died, so that they could be judged in their mortal flesh like all humans and live in the spiritual realm like God.

1 Peter 4:6 Douay-Rheims 1899 American Edition (DRA)

For, for this cause was the gospel preached also to the dead

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Prophecies of Yeshua

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Jesuit perversions of scripture part 2

Thank you, BB, for pointing these serious issues!
This is why it is important to understand the FRONT of the Bible and the Hebrews!
Proof here that John 7:8 is a total farce rendering in all cases because it was REQUIRED for all to go to Jerusalem for the Feast of Sukkot (Tabernacles) as a remembrance of the Israelites’ time in the desert when God (Yehovah/Jehovah) provided all for them. For Jesus NOT to go would have been a SIN (1 John 3:4), corrupting the sinless sacrifice. This means either the Feast was NOT one of the three required Feasts, or text added for a Feast that was not actually occurring, to support the 3 1/2-year ministry doctrine added by the Roman Church hundreds of years later. As stated before, until that new doctrine, the understanding was that Jesus’ ministry lasted “about a year”.
Refer back to John 6:4 where a Passover “a feast of the Jews” was later added to the text for the same reason. (No Jew would have written it that way and the apostles were Jews.)

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1 Corinthians 11:24 King James Version (KJV)

24 And when he had given thanks, he brake it, and said, Take, eat: this is my body, which is broken for you: this do in remembrance of me.

1 Corinthians 11:24 New International Version (NIV)

24 and when he had given thanks, he broke it and said, “This is my body, which is for you; do this in remembrance of me.”

This change is to proof text the catholic doctrine of transubstantiation.

John 7:8 King James Version (KJV)

Go ye up unto this feast: I go not up yet unto this feast: for my time is not yet full come.

John 7:8 New International Version (NIV)

You go to the festival. I am not going up to this festival, because my time has not yet fully come.”

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Closer look at Romans 2:12

So simple, yet lost on His own: both Jew and Christian.

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Romans 2:12 King James Version (KJV)

12 For as many as have sinned without law shall also perish without law: and as many as have sinned in the law shall be judged by the law;

blur-1868068_128012 For as many as have sinned (violated Torah*) without law (unconcerned with Torah) shall also perish (eternal separation from God) without law (Torah): and as many as have sinned in the law (Torah) shall be judged by the law; (Torah)

1 John 3:4  Whosoever committeth sin transgresseth also the law: for sin is the transgression of the law.

The Torah makes the playing field equal for all of humanity, no favoritism can be claimed when all are measured against the same standard.

Paul is explaining that those people that do not know anything about the instructions of YHWH [ie. Hindus, Buddhists, Muslims, etc] will not have eternal life because they have…

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At this time of year, practically everyone talks about thankfulness, asks what you are thankful for, and speaks of thankfulness in a Believer’s life.  Generally, the answers are pretty much the same.  I am not making light of thankfulness.  With the incomparable gift we have received, our thankfulness (or is it gratefulness) should be paramount.

But, sometimes it’s difficult to remain blissfully thankful when your world is turned upside down.

After nine years of a series of constant tribulations, it has been difficult to remain thankful for all the pain and turmoil that has been thrust into what I thought was a previously fruitful, hardworking walk.  I studied the Scriptures diligently, led Bible study groups, shared the gospel of the Kingdom, and performed many ‘good works’.

Then everything changed.

My mother had emergency surgery to save her life the evening of January 10, 2010.  I rushed to Florida from the Midwest the following day.  I had never been in a position to be a medical advocate for anyone except my children’s injuries which were pretty minor. There were more than a few “God-moments”: like when the surgeon came storming in mom’s hospital room four days after the surgery, complaining that we had him pulled out of surgery and proclaiming what a great surgeon he was, etc.  I prayed the Lord would hold my tongue so I didn’t say what I was thinking about this arrogant man, but when he started yelling at my 80-year-old father, it spilled out.  “You might be the best surgeon in the world, but you are a poor excuse for a human being!”, I firmly said, trying not to yell.  “It has been four days and we don’t even know why she needed surgery or what the prognosis is!  And, who do you think you are yelling at your elder like that!”  I then left the room, fearing I had made an enemy.  I went to the end of the hall, crouched down and bowed my head, repenting for my harsh words.  My father’s voice interrupted me, asking me to come back in the room where the surgeon calmly explained that my mother’s gallbladder had essentially exploded and a large stone had lodged in her small intestine but all would be okay.  Wow!

The following day, my father and I were leaving the hospital room for food.  The surgeon was standing at the nurse’s station, back toward us seemingly engrossed in paperwork, but we would have to pass by him to leave the floor.  Gingerly, we started to pass when the surgeon wheeled around and wholeheartedly greeted us as if we were long lost friends.  He discussed how well my mother was doing, how great this was going to turn out and if we had any questions, just ask.  All with a beaming smile on his face.  Dad and I thanked him and started walking arm-in-arm toward the elevators when, very quietly, Dad said, “I don’t know what you said to him but it sure worked!”  I chuckled.  “It wasn’t me Dad.”  I knew that the words which came, uncontrollably, from my mouth had been the Holy Spirit.

Mom got well but it was a slow recovery. I won’t go through what I had to do to make sure everything was set up for mom’s return home before I could go back to my home. This was all new to me and I made lots of mistakes.  My parents had been pretty healthy.   Then came July, 2010. My mother called to tell me she had cancer.  My oldest sister who lived in the northeast helped with care after the surgery.  I was to take the chemo treatments.  My middle sister was backup because she was the only child who lived nearby.

I travelled back and forth every few weeks for the treatments and stayed for a week. Then went home and repeated the process until we were assured mom wasn’t going to get terribly sick.  There were issues, but generally she held up remarkably well.

In May, 2011, my mother called to say something was wrong with my father. They had just been out for a walk and he was fine, but she thought he’d had a stroke.  I didn’t go to Florida immediately at her request.  There were many tests to be done.  The diagnosis came in June: Lewey’s Body Dementia.  This is where the brain is functioning fine but the signals can’t get to the rest of the body.  The odd thing is that my father’s ‘disease’ didn’t match how LBD usually progresses.  It’s usually a slow steady decline but it was like Dad was fine and went off a cliff.  The neurologist thought dad would remain in a nursing home for about seven years!  Dad’s worst fear and there was nothing I could do!

My father died August 6, 2011.  I was grateful he didn’t suffer long, but the loss was shocking.  I hadn’t suffered the loss of anyone close to me besides my grandparents, and that’s not the same. Since coming to faith nine years earlier, my relationship with my parents was very close.  We even vacationed together. It’s amazing what happens when you follow God’s Commands: relationships do heal.  I am grateful for the times dad and I spent together, especially when mom was sick (yes, it is odd to think of it that way): the deep conversations about faith and God.  I understand why God gave us parents – to show us our relationship to Him and what that kind of ‘intimacy’ looks like. I got to experienced it firsthand.

I was the only child willing to watch over our mother after dad died.  In January, 2012, mom was having trouble walking.  The tests showed holes in her upper femur, possibly bone cancer.  I was responsible for her care again.  I was angry: not at mom or God, but my sisters who did absolutely nothing.  They didn’t even call.  Thankfully, it wasn’t bone cancer but required a hip replacement.  Again, I was the child who took care of her then and the succeeding surgeries.  My sisters totally ignored me and didn’t call mom when I was around.

Over the years, there were so many airline flights that the NSA was getting more intrusive in their searches.  When my shirt was lifted way too high in public and I was tested for explosives, I decided the 18-hour road trip couldn’t be as bad.  So, I drove two or three times a year to check on how mom was doing, perform small tasks around the house, and make sure she could still drive safely and live on her own. She was doing great!

My oldest sister died unexpectedly the week of Thanksgiving, 2014.  When I found out, I was in the emergency room with my husband for a mysterious breathing problem that began out of the blue the previous August. We spent the next two years and every extra penny (we still had one daughter in nursing school, too) trying to find out why.  After many doctors who were baffled or gave untenable, possible diagnoses, we traveled to the Mayo Clinic in Florida and finally got a diagnosis and a road to recovery.  Then, in October, 2016, my husband almost died and spent 10 days in the ICU from a pseudomonas infection caused by a compromised immune system due to the steroids he had been given for the previous two years.  Thankfully, he survive due to one nurse who thought tests should be done on the gook he suctioned from my husband’s lungs.  The doctor, one of many who had given incorrect diagnoses of asthma or eosinophilic pneumonia, had told me my husband was dying of acute asthma – his lungs were shutting down.  He was wrong again!  Months of rehab. I elected to do it at home, myself.  By now, I had a lot of experience!

When my husband was well enough, I went to Florida for mom’s 85th birthday in March, 2017.  My younger daughter went, as well.  There had been several reconstructions and other surgeries and issues since 2010, but mom seemed to be doing well!

My mother called me in late April, 2017.  The cancer had returned. Stage 4.  No tumors.  Cancer cells just roamed her body – everywhere.  My mother passed away in July, 2017.  I am still heartbroken but grateful for all the time we had together, just the two of us.  We spoke every day like best friends.  We fought like sisters as times.  She wanted her house ‘warm’ (78 degrees).  I wanted some air!  We talked about everything and nothing.  It was priceless!

Mom had left me, the youngest, as her Trustee. My remaining sister became my nemesis, trying to prevent me from settling the estate, refusing to accept what mom left her, getting an attorney, and lying about my doing things that were illegal.  Her daughter joined with her and it has been quite a nightmare to accomplish what my mother wanted.  It is not over yet, after a year and a half, but I hope it will be soon.

Then, my most beloved dog of nine plus years (literally by my side every day I wasn’t in Florida) died from an infection that took his life last Spring, 2018.  I learned too late that the antibiotic-resistant infection came from the raw food my vet belittled me into feeding.  Then it was compounded by my vet’s incompetence and inaction.  I am still mourning the loss of my most precious boy.  He understood my moods, my words, and licked my many tears away.  He would even stand in front of me then move toward the stairs when I stayed up ‘too late’ as if to say, ‘It’s time for bed’.  I will miss him the rest of my life!

Losing him was the straw that broke the camel’s back.  What is the purpose in all this loss and turmoil in such a short period of time? What am I supposed to learn from losing my entire birth family?  My history.  How many times can a heart love completely and bear being broken repeatedly?  I admit, there were times, I asked God what He want from me?  No, I’m not a perfect daughter, wife, mother, or caregiver.  But, I did all I could out of love.

In the end, I think it’s all about perseverance and not holding onto this life so tightly. It’s about my weakness and His strength.  It’s about dependence upon the only One who will never leave you alone, even at 10:30 at night, standing in a hospital hallway after the surgical department closed with no one to ask where they took your mother or was she even out of surgery yet after eight hours when it was supposed to take two or was she (gulp) – dead!  Or, the endless hours waiting by your husband’s bedside for him to ‘turn the corner’.  It’s the hours of prayer – on your face prayer- when all you can croak out is ‘Mercy’!

After all this, I believe I understand what it means to carry my cross.  I have felt the heart wrenching pain of a Believer’s walk in this fallen world and persevered without losing my mind or faith.  And, none of this was alone!  Isaiah 41.

Thankful?  Not really.  Grateful?  Most definitely!!

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Sun-day / Sol dei – Roman venerable day of the sun.

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Sun-day / Sol dei – Roman venerable day of the sun. root Pagan.

“It has often been charged… that Catholicism is overlaid with many pagan incrustations. Catholicism is ready to accept that accusation – and even to make it her boast… the great god Pan is not really dead, he is baptized.” (The Story of Catholicism p 37)

“Cardinal Newman admits in his book that; the “The use of temples, and these dedicated to particular saints, and ornamented on occasions with branches of trees; incense, lamps, and candles; votive offerings on recovery from illness; holy water; asylums; holydays and seasons, use of calendars, processions, blessings on the fields; sacerdotal vestments, the tonsure, the ring in marriage, turning to the East, images at a later date, perhaps the ecclesiastical chant, and the Kyrie Eleison [Note 17], are all of pagan origin, and sanctified by their adoption into the Church. (374)”…

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Halloween …. worshipping Satan

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Ancient Origins of Halloween

Halloween’s origins date back to the ancient Celtic festival of Samhain (pronounced sow-een). The Celts, who lived 2,000 years ago in the area that is now Ireland, the United Kingdom and northern France, celebrated their new year on November 1. This day marked the end of summer and the harvest and the beginning of the dark, cold winter, a time of year that was often associated with human death.

Celts believed that on the night before the new year, the boundary between the worlds of the living and the dead became blurred. On the night of October 31 they celebrated Samhain, when it was believed that the ghosts of the dead returned to earth.

In addition to causing trouble and damaging crops, Celts thought that the presence of the otherworldly spirits made it easier for the Druids, or Celtic priests, to make predictions about the…

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Church is not where you go…..

Church is who you are!

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